Dear Diary, To the Woman Falling Back in Love with Herself...

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As you must know, all of the girls are becoming 'that' girl all year round! I remember seeing this everywhere women of all ages and different ethnic backgrounds from all over the world were sharing on social media what it truly means to them to be 'that' girl. So what does it mean to be 'that' girl? In the article The Teen Magazine `` What does it mean to become that girl? by Mia Bennett, the author begins to explain the meaning of the word '' someone who is "that girl" is someone who prioritizes themselves in a good way! Spending time to work on themselves, eating foods that make them feel good, being productive, and working on bettering themselves ...that is who 'that girl' is." After watching and seeing so many women share their own life experiences to better themselves to become the woman they are today or reach to become what they always wanted to be.

I too was inspired by seeing all of these women sharing on social media what it truly means to them to be "that" girl. However, this allowed me to have an open mind by asking myself questions I never really thought about asking until now. As I began to ask myself, Who am I ? and What kind of woman do I want to be in the near future? The more and more I kept asking myself the more I didn't know what I wanted nor did I know who I was as an individual. Although I know I am still very young and only in my early twenties as a young adult, I am in this season of my life where I am falling back in love with Ciani. As I am now on this new journey of self-love and self-discovery, knowing I am not the same girl I once was before. I've realized I'd changed so much over the years and leading up to now, as crazy as this may seem I don't know who I am anymore. What makes me happy? And I am learning that's okay too! I am now understanding this new woman. She is evolving.

While I am now on this new journey of relearning who Ciani is? And Loving myself all over again and finding what Ciani likes to do in her spare time? What is Ciani passionate about? All of these questions I am asking myself every single day. There are moments I just don't understand what is going on in my life. I almost feel like I am living in a midlife crisis in my early twenties! Although, I do not fully understand the sudden changes that are happening in my life. These are some of the ways I try to remain positive by pouring into myself every day such as reading a devotional, praying, daily affirmations, reading self-help books, and journaling ( talking to God). I am inquisitive. How do you try to remain positive in your journey to become the best version of yourself?

To the woman who is falling back in love with herself, finding who she is? Who may feel lost, confused, empty, frustrated, afraid, or may feel alone. Now she is finding the strength to fully love and heal herself once again, I am rooting for you always! You are blooming into a beautiful butterfly and I cannot wait to see you blossom into the woman you always wanted to be. My prayer is may you continue to celebrate the woman you are now becoming, celebrate your wins, celebrate your losses, and celebrate your growth! Finally, see the woman that God sees in you, you will one day see it in yourself.

Sincerely,

To the woman falling back in love with herself

I affirm that I celebrate my victories and embrace my failures as opportunities to learn and grow!

First, I would like to say thank you to these ladies for being a part of this journey with me by being my models. Each of you inspire me to walk proudly as the woman that I am; she is resilient, fierce, unapologetic, and determined. You all are my inspiration for why I wrote and created this blog to have a community of women and spaces for us to be empowered. Again thank you to Makyla, Taylor, Davejah, Alexus, Cheyanne, and Sequoia!